Friday, November 7, 2014

Thinking...

I lay here thinking...unable to sleep...
Me and my husband have been married for 7yrs last June...in that time we've had to move from our home in South Carolina, into a place in Tennessee...only to need to leave there...we came to minnesota and had our first child while living in an apt with cracked windows...we moved into a trailer house, had our second child, found mold, moved into another apt...a little girl was killed days later, police investigations, a guy was put in jail....we moved out of there into a house...was forced to leave there by the county when the basement wall shook...we to went to Oklahoma...came back to minnesota,,,the septic tank went in we moved into the farm and now....
7yrs we've been married...so far the only bliss has been in the babies...7yrs of marriage...4 kids...what else is there? Grandma said bad things come in 7year intervals...
Makes me think of the bible story of Joseph telling the dream of the pharaoh...the 7 fat cows mean 7years of plenty...those are eaten by the 7 skinny cows....7yrs of struggle follows...grandma died in 2006...was that the start? Or was it in 2007 when me and my husband had to leave our first house? Don't misread me,,,I'm not saying marrying my husband was a bad choice...I'm saying 7yrs of struggle follow 7yrs of plenty....is mine and my husbands 7yrs of plenty coming soon? We've been struggling since we got married...married in a love so strong it has kept us together for better and for worse...I watch marriages fall apart over less then what we have endured...
Grandma...is our 7yrs of struggles ending soon? 2015 will be yr 8 we've been together...will it be a year of "plenty"? Or more struggles...
I don't want for much...happiness...no more worry of what tomorrow wil hold...that's all I ask...I'm tired of moving...I want my kids to have a place to call home...is that asking for too much?

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