Thursday, April 25, 2013

Random Thoughts...

I was thinking about how I started this blog to be a spot to share my DIY adventures; but now I think I really did give it a great name of "the whole She-bang." Why? you ask...well it's really quite simple. I have shared many, many of the things I've made; but I've also shared whatever happened to be on my mind at any given time. Plus I've also kinda of "used" my blog to "talk" to my Grandparents. Call me strange but it actually kind of helps me to be able to do that...rather anyone reads these posts or not, it helps me; and since it's my blog - that's what matters right? That it helps me.
Loosing my Grandpa so suddenly really shook me to the core, I loved my Grandpa, I didn't get to say goodbye to him he left too suddenly. My Grandma I loved deeply also. If it wasn't for them, I'm not sure I'd be ME today...I don't even know where'd I'd be today if it weren't for my Grandma and Grandpa caring for me and my brother all those yrs. No, I didn't live with my grandparents, we lived on the same farm as them. We ate supper with them. When my Mom went into the hospital we'd stay with them. My Daddy I'd see once or twice a month during the school yr and most of the summer. But it was my Grandparents who was there when I'd be sick and need to go home from school, it was my Grandparents who were there when I rolled my car...so really without them who would I be? where would I be? for this I thank them. They were there when I needed them most never asking questions but being there. It helped me through a lot when I was growing up. And now, being able to "talk" to them, even if it's just me sharing my thoughts on a blog, it really helps me still.
So this blog has really turned into "the whole She-bang" and I actually like it that way.

Some other thoughts. The snow is melting...again...Maybe it'll stay away this time. If it does the we can work on getting that septic tank in. And I can work on where will I put my garden! and Cleaning up the farm house for my family to live in...I really look forward to hearing my kids run through that house. This is a house that my Great-Great-Great-Grandpa built the original house burned down due to a fire in the smokehouse, which was (still is) under the house. It's no longer in use now though. when that house burned down my Great-Great-Grandpa built the house that is currently standing there. The 4bdrm barn style farmhouse that I love so much. my Great-Great-Grandpa was working the farm one day and came to the well, and like every day before he ran some nice, cool, well water over his head and neck...well this day was different for some reason, that was the day he died, right there next to the well that is still there on the farm. My Great-Grandpa updated the house to have indoor plumbing and electricity. My Grandpa grew up in that house. I lived there til I was 7yrs old. It truly is a house that has grown with the family, a house that is cherished for the memories that surround it for my family. These are memories I will share with my kids and tell them why the house is so special to me. Call me weird if you'd like but the house is a house full of my families' memories. And cuz of this it is my dream house. I don't want some random huge house jus cuz it's pretty...I'll take the old farm house that holds memories, that I can add to those memories.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

A Letter from Heaven

"A letter from Heaven"
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven, here I dwell with God above
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight;
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon, and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

"It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone,
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you are part of my plan,
There's so much that we have to do to help out mortal man."
God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do
And foremost on my list is to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night; the day's chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you, in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all of those missed years,
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain,
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned,
But if I were to tell you that, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain though, my life on earth is o'er,
I'm closer to you now than ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb,
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
There is a very wise philosophy and I'd like to share it with you,
That as you give unto the world, the world will give unto you.
If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain,
Then you can say to God at night, "My day was not in vain.
And now I am contented, that my life is worthwhile,
Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile."

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
Just lend them your hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind,
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go, for that body to be free,,
Remember you're not going, You're coming here to me. 

by Author Ruth Ann Mahaffey


I could SO see my grandparents saying this...it made me cry I admit it...I guess it's the time of yr it was always so special for me when growing up looking for those 1st signs of Spring with my grandparents...

Monday, April 1, 2013

Spring's A'coming!

This was my Grandpa's favorite time of yr...the snow's melting making the ground perfect for Spring planting...he'd be planning out his gardens (2 of them both were .5acres) and me and Grandma would be planning what flowers would go into the flower beds around the house...well this yr I get to do it all but I feel my Grandparents alongside me encouraging me like they always did "live your dreams" they'd tell me...it's times like now I guess I miss them the most. I mean Spring held so much when I was growing up it's the little things, watching the earth just come alive after the winter "death" held so much promise...me and Grandpa watching the trees for those 1st leaf buds...and watching the ground for the 1st dandelions...and the fruit trees for the 1st buds of fruit-to-be...so much promise it just amazes you if you really take the chance to stop and admire it all.
I plan to have myself a nice, big garden...Watermelon, Squash, Kohlrabi, Cucumbers, Onions, Peas...the list is endless, and why not? I can grow so much with just some dirt and a little loving attention why not grow it all? My Grandpa would say the same. I can see the garden vegetables peeking their tender green leaves up above the ground reaching for that sunlight...me watering them as needed, tending to any pests that might bother them...and nourishing them to good, strong vegetables to feed my family. I plan to teach my kids as my Grandpa once taught me...I promise, Grandpa, the babies will know how to tend a good garden! I'll give them each their own little spot of earth to plant things in also...why not? so what if their still little learning can never start too soon!
I plan to have Strawberries, Grapes, Raspberries, Black Raspberries...I plan to turn my little 10acres of land into a place of growth and happiness! I'll have Apple trees, and Plum trees...it'll be a place my Grandpa would LOVE! And I know, I too, will love it! Someday I'll watch my kids running amongst the fruit trees, grabbing fruit and enjoying it as they play...it'll be a dream come true!
Yes, it may seem I have big dreams, but really, honestly if you think about it, my dreams aren't that far fetched...they'll just take years to completely fullfil, which I'm fine with waiting...it makes it all worth it.
But for now, I'll watch for those 1st leaf buds and share them with my kids...then we'll watch for the 1st dandelions and we'll pick them and put them on the kitchen table...and we'll play in the dirt as we plant a garden that'll feed us when ripe...and we'll be happy, my kids will learn, just as I did what it's like to be happy to provide your own food as you watch the little green leaves stretch for the sun...those green leaves that'll turn into cucumbers or carrots...I look forward to this time...the time I'll share with my kids what my Grandpa shared with me...even if there is a few tears involved as this is the 1st Spring he's not here...